Greatest Gift Ever Received...

April 8, 2011, 4:10am, marked the happiest moment in my and Jake's life.  April 7th was such a painful day, but it was worth it.  The moment I saw Matteo, my heart leaped with joy and love for him, despite feeling weak after the delivery.  It was such a day to remember and nothing could ever equal that precious moment.

Even until now, I'm having these mixed emotions...joy and fear tops them all.  Joy of having my precious little one in my life, joy of watching my husband having moments with his son, and at the same time, there's the fear of failing as a good mom to Matteo.  I know life isn't perfect, but the thought of failing as a mom to my son in any aspect scares me.

But, I have my husband to stay beside me and care for Matteo for the rest of our lives.  Our relationship as a couple have failed several times, but we stood together through all of it.  And as days go by, my happiness goes to the nth level every time I see hubby hug and kiss Baby Matteo.  It's like an assurance for me that his love for us will be forever and nothing and no one will ever break our family apart.  We will get through every thing together...

Jake and Matteo are my strength, happiness...MY LIFE...